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Emotional Roller Coaster

July 6th, 2017 at 07:51 pm

The past few days have been an emotional roller coaster for me.

DH had a physical in June and some test results came back where he had to see a specialist. It has been scary waiting. He did see a specialist and the specialist doesn't feel things are anything to be concerned with so we check again in three months. At this point, we felt this is a blessing.

Personally, I am waiting on test results not only from a physical, but also from another test. It seems once you get to be a certain age, these checkups and tests get scary because you know what could be. There's probably new reason to worry, but unfortunately worry is something upon which I excel.

The thing that has really thrown me for a loop is a person I used to work with committed suicide. I can't even imagine the despair this person felt that he decided taking his own life was the solution. I makes me think how little we really know people. Of course there are all the questions of why which will probably not be answered. My heart goes to the family and friends who survive.

Currently the state House is meeting to decide whether to vote to override the governor's veto of the state budget. Yesterday they met but didn't have enough in attendance for a quorum. One wonders what they lawmakers are thinking when they aren't in attendance. It's their job. So, the waiting continues. We are supposed to have a dentist appointment this month and I'm wondering whether to postpone it. I could take the money out of savings, but I don't really want to. We are still living pretty frugally until we hear about the budget.

11 Responses to “Emotional Roller Coaster”

  1. creditcardfree Says:

    I'm so sorry for you, the coworker and his family. Dealing with suicide is very emotional for anyone involved. It defies understanding. My daughter has a classmate die by suicide when she was in 9th grade, the whole community mourned.

  2. PatientSaver Says:

    I agree, the suicide of someone you know must be a terrible thing. I haven't experienced it, but I can imagine how much you might revisit countless interactions, wondering if you could have responded differently, were there warning signs, etc.

    I understand what you're saying about health concerns as we get older. What once were things we did without much concern are now more critical. All the more reason to do everything we can to take care of our physical bodies.

  3. ceejay74 Says:

    Best wishes for good test results! I'm a worrier too when it comes to my own and my family's health.

  4. My English Castle Says:

    Wishing for good results for both of you. I am having a hard time believing all these state governments in such a mess. What happened to statesmanship, compromise, and negotiation?

  5. Out of the Dark Says:

    My very best wishes for peace in your life and heart!

  6. CB in the City Says:

    Looks like they passed something, anyway! Hope the new budget has what you need. Luckily, I'm not very much affected by the state budget except in the ways everyone else is.

  7. rob62521 Says:

    You're right, CB, a budget was passed. Not a terrific one, but I guess after two years without one, it is better to have a bad one instead of one not at all.

    Thanks everyone for your kindness.

  8. VS_ozgirl Says:

    I'm very sorry to hear about the suicide of someone you knew. If only you could find out what was so awful that they felt like ending their life was the best option.. my father committed suicide when I was 18 but we were well aware of why - my mother wanted him to get help but he didn't want to.. he was unemployed for two years and had tinnitus which was getting much, much worse.. hoping that the family and friends can come to terms with this, sending healing thoughts.

  9. rob62521 Says:

    Thanks, VS. Sorry about your dad. There are so many unanswered questions.

  10. VS_ozgirl Says:

    Thanks Rob, it was a long time ago so have come to terms with it many years ago, and hope that the friend's family and friends are able to come to terms with their loss too.

  11. Thrifty Ray Says:

    {{hugs}} friend. I am so sorry for your loss. And yes, after a certain age things just dont work the way they used to...Im right there with you....

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